So I’ve learned from my experience
that God protects the vulnerable.
For I was broken and brought low,
but he answered me and came to my rescue!
Now I can say to myself and to all,
“Relax and rest, be confident and serene,
for the Lord rewards fully those who simply trust in him.”
Psalm 116:6,7 TPT
On the way back from an appointment with a medical specialist, (an eleven hour return trip for me) I stopped by this reservoir on the Cowboy Trail in southern Alberta. On that day two years ago, I received more information about another complication in my already complex health condition. It didn’t help that I forgot the backpack with my wallet in it at the place I was staying. I needed it for my health insurance card for the hospital and my credit card to leave my car in the underground parking maze. I went back for it, praying the whole time I wouldn’t miss my appointment and arrived, frazzled, with seconds to spare. (Have you noticed God is right on time but never early?)
On the trip home, I stopped in this beautiful place and had a chat with God. I felt anxious and very vulnerable. I reflected upon the reflection and realized the water could never produce the beauty it bore. Like the water I didn’t have to manufacture my own peace. I simply needed to keep my eyes on the giver of peace, whose nature is peace. I don’t know how to relax and rest when I know I can forget important things like my wallet. Serenity is not a natural trait. One of the fruits of the Holy Spirit is peace because he IS peace.
Back in the car, a song played these words, “It’s not the end. It’s not the end. You’re gonna be ok.”*
If I am in him and he is in me, then his peace is my peace. This is more than reflection. This is absorption. Learning that I am loved and accepted allows me to become what I am not without him – and I m not without him because he promised to never leave. I am changing.
This season brings more challenges. We have decided to move to another part of the province to be closer to adult children. They have pointed out that we are aging and need more help. They are urging us to let them do that for us. I am tempted to be overwhelmed by the daunting task of fixing up our property to sell, de-cluttering, and looking at finding a new place to live in a city where real estate prices are double what they are here. The process of parting with a houseful of stuff with so many memories attached is emotionally daunting. The prospect of parting with good friends made over 36 years in this place I love is even more daunting.
For the past few months I have felt the Lord telling us to prepare for a change. What that change was I didn’t know. The thought of moving into a place without stairs, where it would be easier for me to get around, felt like preparing for the end, like seeing a sign my exit ramp loomed up ahead. Then a little while ago, a prophetic artist had a painting for me. It was of a woman joyfully walking beside a lake. She said, “God wants you to know it’s not over yet. He has more for you.”
Today I choose to walk in God’s peace. I may be surrounded by half-sorted boxes of art supplies, music books, sewing fabric, and writing materials potential, but like the woman walking beside still water that day at the reservoir, and the woman dancing beside a sun-dappled lake in the painting, I will simply trust, leave the past behind, and take one step at a time toward the next thing.
Care to join me?
*”It’s Gonna Be Okay” by Jenn Johnson, Jeremy Riddle, and Seth Mosley
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Such hope filled words my friend in this time of transition….or metamorphoses…Overall Peace in this journey for you and your husband as you look for His “provision with decision “…and a fitting in…finding your tribe in your new home so U 2 will continue to be a blessing and soar in your giftings….much love and appreciation for your friendship….💞
The thought of moving away from people like you is very daunting. I love you and appreciate you very much as well.
Charis, thank you for sharing. We are in a new season and are transitioning from the old into the new. Change can be daunting but is inevitable. It is hard to leave the comfort of the known for the new and unknown. You will find a place with a tribe with whom you will relate. Many new assignments and fulfilling times await you in your new place.
In your new assignment, you will rely on God more and find new delights in him. You will thrive, enjoy, and take pleasure in the wonders of God’s provision and love, despite what seems difficult. You will flourish and grow, in a new place of influence with others that desire the pleasure of your wisdom, and friendship. Get ready to spread your wings and mount up and fly like an eagle on the winds of Holy Spirit! You will lack no good thing in this new adventure!
Hugs and love!
Thank you, Hazel. Such a beautiful way to look at this change! Bless you, kind friend.
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You are welcome! ❤️
Transplanting a seedling is relatively easy. Transplanting a mature, more deeply rooted plant requires much more tender loving care. Anticipate this.
Wisdom. Thank you, Brother.