But Lord, your nurturing love is tender and gentle,
You are slow to get angry, yet swift to show your faithful love,
You are full of abounding grace and truth.
Bring me to your grace-fountain
So that your strength becomes mine.
(Psalm 86: 15, 16 TPT)
You can’t give what you have never received. If the message you have been hearing is that you are a disgusting wretched sinner who (in spite of years of failed efforts) needs to gather up the shreds of your tattered will and try harder, you need to step into the grace fountain and soak up some love.
Let the Shepherd nurture you with His tender, gentle love. Let His strength become your strength and his grace flow through you, not around you. Let the Holy Spirit living in you transform you from a wretch to royalty.
There is a war going on. Hostages of the evil one are believing his lies and acting on them in the streets. You see it.
You are not a victim. You are not without hope. You are loved by the King of the Universe.
You were born for such a time as this.